Monthly Archives: October 2015

Week 4 – I QUIT!

They told us on the webinar yesterday that this is the week that everyone ends up quitting.  They were right, but not in the way you’re thinking.  Sure – it seems lots of people have quit doing the assignments and decided to languish in their old lives.  But others of us  quit giving this partial effort and are going 100%.  🙂

I’ve done pretty well up to now – far better than any other program I’ve tried for the last many years.  In fact, I’ve really surprised myself!  My old M.O. has been procrastination… putting everything off until the last possible minute.  The surprise to me is that I’ve had EVERY assignment done way before (days before, even) it was due.

What I haven’t done 100% is the reading assignments.  We have a few things that we read from one to three times daily.  Not a new chapter – reading the same thing over and over and over and over.  Did I mention and over?

There’s definitely a PURPOSE to reading the same thing several times a day, but life gets busy – I get tired – and so sometimes I’ve missed a time or two on a day.  The whole point of this class is to reprogram Subby (our subconscious mind) to break the cycles of the past and reprogram ourselves to achieve the life we have dreamed of.  I’ve already seen HUGE progress – like eliminating procrastination and getting stuff done outside of the class as well as the assignments.

BUT THEN –

Yesterday we got into the SCIENCE of how/why this is necessary and how/why this process works.  GOT IT!  And I realize that the more I read and speak and GET EXCITED, the faster this is going to work and the faster my dreams will come true.  I feel another blog post coming on this soon.

A word here about my Christian faith…  I’ve been a bit reserved about this process because there are some “new age-y” thoughts and words.  Because of some things I’ve seen with unnamed others (not associated with this), who fell into things that sounded good and became deceived, I’ve been very careful to guard my heart and mind against a spirit of deception.  However, I find that I’m fully able to separate the few parts that bother me and just go with the parts of this that are a) supported by the Word and/or b) not in conflict with the Word.  I’ve even started incorporating scripture references into the readings.  Would Baby Christians be as discerning?  I’m not sure and I’m being pretty observant with that question in mind.  I’ll say more about this later, I’m sure.

But in the meantime – I’m putting all my chips in the middle of the felt!

Welcome!!

It took me some frustration and time, but as you can see, I figured out how to move the blog today!  Welcome to my new “home”.

Please ignore the blankets in place of draperies – I’ll spruce the place up a bit soon.  I promise – and I ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISES!  Kbc

Week 3 – What is the capitol of the state of Overwhelm???

So parts of week 3 are going GREAT!  I’ve been getting command of the 15 minute sit.  My latest revision of my DMP really resonates in my soul.  I am Getting.  Stuff.  Done!  Seriously, I haven’t procrastinated on my assignments, got my chores done in advance of the set date.  Great, right?

But then, I decided to try to figure out how to move my blog to my existing website as a subdomain and KABLAM!  I’ve short circuited some wiring in my head.  All of a sudden I feel defeated.  I know that’s the old blueprint just itching to find a way to shut me up with all this change stuff…. but when I hit that wall of overwhelm, I hit it at about 83 MPH.

There are so many minute details, and I can’t find what comes next.  TOTALLY LOST.  TOTALLY FRUSTRATED.

My friend, Maggy, would get this:  %blog %WordPress %assignments

And so now, I am going to play some poker and relax.

overwhelmed

Week 2 – You Reap What Subby Sows

A couple of interesting thoughts from this week:

1:  I’ve been living backwards!  I’ve had an expectation that I’d become successful and change the way I think about success.  I realize that sounds stupid, but that’s what I had in my mind.

We don’t plant a cabbage and expect to harvest seeds.  We don’t go to college and expect to learn multiplication tables.  We don’t hold a wedding and expect to meet someone with whom we will build a lifetime.  Nature has a natural progression – seed time and harvest!

So why to we learn to live backwards?  We look at the methods we can see to determine our intention.  Our brains are wired to FIND the methods required to achieve our intention – but most of us live a life of quiet desperation because we don’t harness the power of our minds!

For me, that changes TODAY.

2) Soil is neutral.  I’m not talking pH – I’m talking about the fact that it doesn’t have an opinion about what is planted in it.  Plant weeds, it will grow weeds.  (And for my buddies from the Kerr Center for Sustainable Agriculture, yes, I know you prefer to call them “forbes”  LOL)  Plant deadly nightshade, it will grow poison.  Plant roses, it will grow roses.  Plant pumpkins and it will grow pumpkins.

It is also true of our subconscious, known as “Subby” in the MKMMA lingo.  But most of us never examine what is planted in Subby.  Plant fear and you’ll reap fear.  Plant doubt and reap doubt.  Plant determination to succeed and people better get out of the way!

I’m on a 26 week journey of self-discovery.  I’m looking objectively at myself, my habits and my innermost thoughts.  And I’m plowing up the weeds and the nightshade and I’m planting good things, that will nourish my soul – and cause me to succeed.

Today, I begin a new life.

Week 1 Continued – So What IS this thing I’m doing?

Long post warning:  823 words.

For years, most of my life, in fact, I’ve been a student of “self help” information in all its many forms.  (It makes me laugh that it was recently pointed out that “self help” books and classes are an oxymoron.  I know, right???).  I’d read a book, listen to a tape, attend a class…. all in a quest to overcome the hurdles in my life (most of which I custom designed to trip myself up!).  I’ve spent thousands of dollars to try to become my best self and do something different.  I’d get a spark of motivation or “take massive action”, but it never lasted.   My subconscious mind and its old tapes and blue prints have won the battle every time.

Enter MKMMA – the Master Keys Master Mind Alliance.  Why is it different?  Well, for one thing, it started differently.  No one tried to SELL me anything.  MKMMA is available only by a pay-it-forward scholarship, funded by the people who took the course before me.  In this case, the class of 2014 (which by total coincidence happened to include a long-time internet acquaintance of mine from about 90 miles west of me, how fun is that?) paid for the scholarships for the class of 2015.  First, I had to qualify to apply.  Every couple of days, I had to watch a video and take a simple step to qualify for the next round.  After three such exercises, I was invited to apply for one of the scholarships.  The application fee was $1.  Then I had to wait to see if my application was approved.  I was really really nervous as I waited for my name to appear on the scholarship list, which took a couple of days.

Once approved, I had to have certain supplies on hand: a couple of binders, 2 copies of Og Mandino’s book “The Greatest Salesman in the World”, colored pencils, and index cards…. and plenty of printing supplies.  I think before the 1st webinar, I printed close to 100 pages of info to read!!  The first webinar was LONG, but I stayed on the entire time so that I thoroughly understood what was to be expected of me.  And I got to work.

Every day, I have reading assignments.  I am reading the same things over each day – some once a day, some three times.  One of the things I read daily they said had to be hand-written.  HAND WRITTEN?  Writing a check is a pain in the ass these days!  But, I didn’t let my handicap hold me back.  It took me three hours to write what most people probably did in 20 minutes, but I DID IT.  And it’s even legible enough that strangers could read it.  Take THAT, Parkinson’s!  Some of my daily reading assignments are read silently and some are read aloud.  All of that is on the honor system – I said I’d do the work and I’m doing the work.

But then there are tangible requirements, as well.  The first was easy – complete a feedback survey about the webinar.  But, as it turns out – a large portion of the class has not done it, even though it took like 2 minutes.  The second tangible requirement was LOTS tougher!  I had to write my DMP (Definte Major Purpose) and email it in – to STRANGERS who are going to read it, make suggestions and send it back.

My old friend, Fear Of Failure, was forefront in my mind.  I procrastinated Sunday and Monday because a) I didn’t know what to write b) if I didn’t know what to write, what I’d write would be wrong c) if what I wrote was wrong, I’d fail.  By Tuesday, I decided to feel the fear and do it anyway.  I wrote out my DMP and sent it off.  My personal certified guide, Jana, replied that it had been received, that she thought it was a very good 1st draft, and said she’d spend 72 hours or so before replying with suggestions.

By far the hardest of all assignments is the daily “sit”.  I am to sit 100% perfectly still for 15 minutes a day.  Nose itches?  Tough.  Deal with it.  DO NOT MOVE.  Let your mind wander where it will, but DO NOT MOVE.  The point, or so I am told, is that before I can control my mind, I must control my body.

And so I sit.  Keeping in mind that Parkinson’s manifests in resting tremors, so there is really no such thing as sitting perfectly still, but I do not move outside of the tremors.  Last night was a beyotch!  I had muscle cramps in my right thigh and right arm.  Tough.  I dealt with it.  I did not move despite the pain.  I figured  that a few minutes of pain were not going to kill me but that continuing to do things in submission to my subconscious mind (who I KNOW caused those cramps!!) just might.

Today, I begin a new life.